I haven't been able to post much these days for a few reasons:
1. No energy and little time. That's a big one.
2. Writer's block and performance anxiety that is no doubt related to:
3. A nice bout of debilitating depression.
It's hard to even write this because in general I try not to write about blogging on my blog (not because I am not interested in the subject but mainly because when I do it I sound even more self-absorbed than normal). I also try not to reveal too much about my ongoing struggles with depression and anxiety. It's something that I am pretty private about in real life and my friends and family read this blog. I don't think it's fair to drop bombs here that they then have to ignore because I don't want to talk about it. In general, if it's something I don't want to have a face-to-face conversation about I won't post it on my blog. But I feel like I have to say something about it because if I don't I will just have to pack it in and quit writing here altogether. And I don't want to do that (and not just because I already paid the credit card bill that included my BlogHer registration fee). So here goes: Hi, I'm Alana, and often I'm unable to cope.
I am going to try and just take the pressure off myself a little and call an official hiatus. As soon as this passes I will be posting again regularly (and I know from my history that this will indeed pass). Twittering will still be happening but I hope to stay pretty far away from my computer until I feel better. I am going to close comments on this post because I don't want to obsess about it anymore and checking back will make me do that. I do love and appreciate all the kind emails and comments I've gotten over the last couple months - you all are terrific and have been a wonderful source of support. Thank you.
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